Its been a while....

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Salam hi.

So..........................
yes its been a while. Lama gila. Lama lama gilaaa. sigh. Where to start?
Rasa macam dah malas. But writing always always have a special soft part of me. I love writing since forever. So, lets just keep it. And rasa semangat jugak dalam pada hilang dari radar ni, there's increase number of readers. So, semangat sikit kan, tak la rasa giveup sangat.

Where to start? There's 1 more day left for 2019 to be gone. forever. What a year..
2019 has been tough and struggling for me.
Banyak gila benda jadi. Ups and downs. But in the end, Im still grateful for everything.
Each one of you that lend me a hand, ear, shoulder, hugs, im forever grateful. Really.

To sum up everything, We've been through a little rough time.
But I can feel that 2020 going to be better and great. InshaAllah.

Depression and anxiety get me real hard this year. I'm struggling. a lot.
But worry not, I get professional help and is getting better and stronger each day.
Plus,there's more exciting things going to happen such as....
Ariqa and Ayydan going to have another baby next year, InshaAllah.

Ariqa pun dah nak masuk 6years. Dia banyak tertinggal this year sbb mak dia sakit. So i felt terribly bad but I dah tekad no more sick (please god) I want to be a good mother, again.
So for 2020, I rasa i punya azam and tekad, be a good mother, a good person.
I want to repay all the wasted time my kids had to faced just because of me.
I want to treat myself better. And of course my husband, Faris. Thank you for always there. Always.

Thats all for now, Lepas ni i try buat content okay.
2019, thank you for the memories. Im going to move on..
2020, lets stay warm.

Toodles.

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